The Victim and the Survivor

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The Victim and the Survivor

The first discovery that really stuck with me is the idea of the victim. So what is the victim- it is the role that people play in their lives that makes them perceive all situations and circumstances as if it a personal attack in their lives. Victims believe that everything that happens to them is a result of something or someone else; it never happens because of them. Victims believe that they are never at fault.

We all know someone that plays the victim of their life; some of us are the victims of our own lives.  I say this because only once I realised how many times a day I played the victim, was I finally able to understand why the universe was not giving me what I wanted.

You know that feeling when we say things like:

·         I’m such a good person, but people are so mean to me;

·         I give so much love but I don’t get that love back;

·         I work so hard but I never see the results;

·         These things always happen to me;

·         Why do I always get hurt in love;

·         I don’t get treated the way I deserve to be treated and;

·          I ask for so little and I get even less back.

Those were some of personal favourites for when I threw myself a pity party, which felt like almost every day. I would think of all these things and I would cry until I couldn’t see anything through the heavy tears. Then I would call a friend or two and look for sympathy from them. I didn’t realise that I was looking for sympathy because I believed that I was just confirming that I was right to feel the way that I did. Off course I did get the sympathy that I was looking for, but all that happened after I got that sympathy was that I felt more sad for myself.

Feeling sorry for myself lead to new and even better psychological problems. I started to believe that if I wasn’t treated the way I felt that I should be treated then maybe I didn’t deserve to be treated in that way. Perhaps this was what I deserved. Perhaps that was all I was worth. So in the end I felt worthless and in my head I believed that I must truly be a "bad" person because I deserved even less than I wanted.

Ah, then the even better game started... I began to point out people that I felt were “bad” people and I then compare them to myself. I wondered why was it that those "bad" people were so happy and I wasn’t.  I wasn’t promiscuous, I didn’t cause harm to others, willingly, I was helpful and I did my best in trying to make others happy (which is a story for later).

So here is what I learnt... Playing the victim only encourages the universe to give you more reasons to play the victim. By feeling sorry for myself, I began to play another role. I began to play the detective. I was constantly looking more and more things to make me feel sorry for myself.  Here’s where it gets more interesting... Not only was I a victim, but almost everyone I was in close contact with, were also victims. I realised that as much as I went around looking for sympathy, I had also given so much sympathy to others. So here’s the hard truth, sympathy is not love. It may seem like love, but it’s not love. If it was love, it would be called love; it would show up as a synonym for love, but it doesn’t. All that it does, is it increases the power of the universe in giving you more of a reason to play the victim.

This is what happens in the comic energy of the universe:

1.      You feel victimized.

2.      The universe hears and feels you.

3.      You list all the things that make you sorry for yourself.

4.      The universe hears and feels you.

5.      You tell your friends, family and some unfortunate person that stands in front of you in the line to buy a cup of coffee.

6.      The universe hears and feels you and all the people that sympathize with you.

7.   The energy put out becomes amplified. In economies they call this: The Multiplier Effect.

8.      The universe gives you back what it understands as what it is that you really want.

9.      A situation occurs in your life and you feel victimized.

It’s easy enough to understand now. As you can see it is an infinite cycle. So I realised I needed to break free of this cycle. I knew I had to stop feeling sorry for myself. So I did two things.

First I started to call myself a survivor. When something happened that would have made me feel sad for myself, I would say to myself:

“Amrisha, you’re still alive. You made it through. You survived this.”

By thinking of myself as a survivor began to give me courage to face life. It made me feel secure. Many of my insecurities began to fade away, taking my fears away. I was not as afraid as I used to be. This made me feel so much stronger and capable of achieving my goals in life.

The second thing that I did was to be grateful. When something happened that would have made me feel like a victim, I would thank God, the angels and the universe for something. By showing gratitude towards the things that I have in life made me focus on the things that brought positivity in life. At first it was hard to be thankful when all I wanted to do was curl up in the fetal position and feel sorry for myself. It started out small. I started by being thankful for things like my eyesight, air-conditioning, my ability to walk and for the roof over my head.

I actually made a game of it now. Every time I hear the words “grateful”, “gratitude”, “appreciate” and “thank” I say something that I am grateful for. Each time, I find more things to appreciate in my life. In essence I felt happier about more things in life, so I keep finding more things to make me happier.

So stop feeling sorry for yourself and start seeing yourself as a survivor and a become grateful for all things that you receive in life. When you do this, you will find yourself feeling happier, lighter and your problems will start to fade away. You will start to own your own power. 

There will be more blogs to help you become a survivor.

Thanks for reading :)